Uniterested...

I have no desire to go to work these days.

I hate going in and leaving Eli in the morning. I hate the fact that at least 3/4 of my paycheck goes to the babysitter. I hate the fact that I feel like I am only working for insurance reasons. I wish that I could be the stay at home mom that I always thought I would be. It's so hard to accept that I can't stay home with Eli.

I wake up Tuesday - Friday and dread getting out of bed, because I know that the minutes are quickly fading and that at 7:45am, I have to start that dreaded walk to work.

I never expected to go back to work. It is not something that Shay and I have taken lightly. However, we just can't figure out a way to make me staying at home, work.

Maybe in the future I will get my wish and be able to stay home with my ever changing baby. If I miss his first crawl because I am work, I will freak out. I am over leaving him everyday. Ugh. What a rant.

Posted by Cortney at 11:49 PM